till the end of the year

you should've seen the state of my apartment when i walked in this afternoon. i renew my vow to never get drunk the night before a flight ever again. in any case, i'm so glad to be home (and wow, when did my SJ apartment start being "home"?). i got over canada on day 6 or something. i was feeling so sick of having no internet and being sooooo disconnected from everyone. i'm not a geek. i just need to be as close to home (sydney home) as i can be right now. or at least as contactable as possible.

i remember jade's 18th birthday party. that night at about 3am.. jade's parents were sleeping in their bed, my parents were sleeping in jade's bed, millie's parents were sleeping in lola's bed, lola and brad were sleeping in the computer room, and raquel, millie, jade and i were sleeping in the lounge. millie and jade head-to-toe on the couch, me on two armchairs pulled together to make a pseudo-bed, and raquel in the most comfortable spot of course on the folding bed. just like when we were kids. all 12 of us under the one roof. it breaks my heart that that was probably the last time that will happen.

i want to go home. i shouldn't be this far away. and its not fair that i'm being kept out of the loop because i'm this far away and no one wants me to worry. not for long though. my mum told me to come home and to forget about november. expect me back on aussie soil by september 26. i'm counting down the days.

please keep my family in your prayers. the next couple of months are going to be hard.